Post by dave on May 9, 2014 21:40:10 GMT
Before i continue into my story id like to share my day with you.
My day started around 7:00am. The sound of laughter and tiny feet around the bed, sunlight shining through the curtains.
Time to get up, kids buzzing around my feet as they give their orders for breakfast. The sound of sibbling rivalry as they race against each other to see who can get ready for school first.
Dropped the kids at school as they hold out there arms and clasp there hands behind my neck 'pick me up, pick me up!' they shout. haha they always do this after a kiss ' i dont want to let you go' they say.. 'il be back later to pick you up' i said. I kissed them all and they ran off and played games before class.
As i walk down the path my heart fills with joy and pride ' they are my kids' i tell myself!
My day is already planned out, i start by finishing some work for university kiss my partner goodbye and then off to salford to pick John up. Still cant used to saying that, il never take it for granted. being able to just go somewhere just because i want to and not having to worry or get anxious is an amazing feeling.
As i pick John up we go to the office and get the t-shirts that was ordered for salford dadz, looking good and in a great colour 'Heather Grey'! look very swarve!
While in the office i have a chat with Chris Dabbs CHIEF EXECUTIVE of Unlimtied Potential, this guy is amazing, cant get your head more screwed on - very busy guy but i was humbled he had time to chat with me thats what i love about this company, no snotty business men fighting for the next profit just 100% well being of men in salford. I spent a good 20 minutes talking with him; he was telling me a story, this story was told with a passion, i could see the emotion run though his eyes as he was explaining to me how this guy life had changed by helping and engageing with teenagers.
Your probably wondering why im telling you all this, well i want to share with anybody who is listening on how much your life can change for the better and this company has done so much for me and many others around Salford and surrounding areas.
Anyway where am i going now, oh yeah, off to the gym with john! thats right just get in my car and go, because i can!
Spend about an hour in the gym, go to mats cafe for post workout meal (aka last chance saloon) and then to a meeting in the childrens center.
Busy busy...... then back in time to pick kids up from school. my babies!!
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The Judge Continued
I awake later than expected, nothing to get up for. Quiet, dull and depressing.. Anxiety runs through my veins as soon as i open my eyes, oh not again i say to myself as i walked into the front room; empty cans of beer on the floor from the night before...Why do i do this to myself.. I know it makes me ill and i know it doenst get me what i want so why do i continue on this path.. Its the nights, so lonely, no aim, no goal, nothing to live for so why dont i just self destruct!
Suddenly it hits me, John is coming for me and we are going to a school to judge the entries for men behaving dadly. I had to clean up and get myself washed and ready i cant miss this.. i was looking forward to this so much and knew this would eventually free me, dont quite know what that was at that moment but it felt good.
I got a text from john, right on time. be with you at 10;00 mate. Not long to wait. dont really want to go outside and start feeling sick at the thought of travelling to the school with john, dont like going out of my comfort zone. Drinking defintely didnt help the night before. was about to text John to cancel then the red charriott arrives outside. I peered through the closed curtains that was keeping me in the dark and protecting me form the outside reality of day. It was John. I lock my door and get into Johns car very nervously. 'hiya mate' john says in a friendly voice 'you ok' yeah fine mate i said as i stick chewing gum in my mouth.
we're not going far john says which made me feel a lot better.
We get to the school and felt more at ease. They was expecting us, they already know John by how they are speaking to him.. We are put in a room and wait for the competition entries to be brought in.
As the lady hands us the entries i felt a confidence rush over me, im here, doing this and its an important job and it feels official i felt privileged to be here. I started reading the entries and they got me trearing up already, a girl who lost her dad is talking about how her step dad takes care of her and how much she loves him but misses her daddy that passed away.. That hits me hard.. I have kids and im not with them because of issues with there mum, im being kept form them and they probably think i dont care or love them..
Its only been a few days but it feels like a lifetime for me. This has given me a kick up the arse. we need to sort this for our babies sake.
We leave having picked the entries for the competition and john drops me off at home. I feel good for being out and achieving something and im glad i never sent that text to john to cancel.
I have to change things, this is insanity. but how can you change someone who promises the world and takes it back the next day.. all i know is that i cant keep doing this and my kids need their daddy!!
To be continued...
My day started around 7:00am. The sound of laughter and tiny feet around the bed, sunlight shining through the curtains.
Time to get up, kids buzzing around my feet as they give their orders for breakfast. The sound of sibbling rivalry as they race against each other to see who can get ready for school first.
Dropped the kids at school as they hold out there arms and clasp there hands behind my neck 'pick me up, pick me up!' they shout. haha they always do this after a kiss ' i dont want to let you go' they say.. 'il be back later to pick you up' i said. I kissed them all and they ran off and played games before class.
As i walk down the path my heart fills with joy and pride ' they are my kids' i tell myself!
My day is already planned out, i start by finishing some work for university kiss my partner goodbye and then off to salford to pick John up. Still cant used to saying that, il never take it for granted. being able to just go somewhere just because i want to and not having to worry or get anxious is an amazing feeling.
As i pick John up we go to the office and get the t-shirts that was ordered for salford dadz, looking good and in a great colour 'Heather Grey'! look very swarve!
While in the office i have a chat with Chris Dabbs CHIEF EXECUTIVE of Unlimtied Potential, this guy is amazing, cant get your head more screwed on - very busy guy but i was humbled he had time to chat with me thats what i love about this company, no snotty business men fighting for the next profit just 100% well being of men in salford. I spent a good 20 minutes talking with him; he was telling me a story, this story was told with a passion, i could see the emotion run though his eyes as he was explaining to me how this guy life had changed by helping and engageing with teenagers.
Your probably wondering why im telling you all this, well i want to share with anybody who is listening on how much your life can change for the better and this company has done so much for me and many others around Salford and surrounding areas.
Anyway where am i going now, oh yeah, off to the gym with john! thats right just get in my car and go, because i can!
Spend about an hour in the gym, go to mats cafe for post workout meal (aka last chance saloon) and then to a meeting in the childrens center.
Busy busy...... then back in time to pick kids up from school. my babies!!
..........................................................................................................................................................................
The Judge Continued
I awake later than expected, nothing to get up for. Quiet, dull and depressing.. Anxiety runs through my veins as soon as i open my eyes, oh not again i say to myself as i walked into the front room; empty cans of beer on the floor from the night before...Why do i do this to myself.. I know it makes me ill and i know it doenst get me what i want so why do i continue on this path.. Its the nights, so lonely, no aim, no goal, nothing to live for so why dont i just self destruct!
Suddenly it hits me, John is coming for me and we are going to a school to judge the entries for men behaving dadly. I had to clean up and get myself washed and ready i cant miss this.. i was looking forward to this so much and knew this would eventually free me, dont quite know what that was at that moment but it felt good.
I got a text from john, right on time. be with you at 10;00 mate. Not long to wait. dont really want to go outside and start feeling sick at the thought of travelling to the school with john, dont like going out of my comfort zone. Drinking defintely didnt help the night before. was about to text John to cancel then the red charriott arrives outside. I peered through the closed curtains that was keeping me in the dark and protecting me form the outside reality of day. It was John. I lock my door and get into Johns car very nervously. 'hiya mate' john says in a friendly voice 'you ok' yeah fine mate i said as i stick chewing gum in my mouth.
we're not going far john says which made me feel a lot better.
We get to the school and felt more at ease. They was expecting us, they already know John by how they are speaking to him.. We are put in a room and wait for the competition entries to be brought in.
As the lady hands us the entries i felt a confidence rush over me, im here, doing this and its an important job and it feels official i felt privileged to be here. I started reading the entries and they got me trearing up already, a girl who lost her dad is talking about how her step dad takes care of her and how much she loves him but misses her daddy that passed away.. That hits me hard.. I have kids and im not with them because of issues with there mum, im being kept form them and they probably think i dont care or love them..
Its only been a few days but it feels like a lifetime for me. This has given me a kick up the arse. we need to sort this for our babies sake.
We leave having picked the entries for the competition and john drops me off at home. I feel good for being out and achieving something and im glad i never sent that text to john to cancel.
I have to change things, this is insanity. but how can you change someone who promises the world and takes it back the next day.. all i know is that i cant keep doing this and my kids need their daddy!!
To be continued...
